Monday, April 19, 2010


One of my favorite things about spring is all of the flowers, green grass, and blossoming trees. But with all that comes the weeds that in turn cause the annoying allergies.
So I was driving down the road and randomly this thought hit me:

In our lives we have all have these different flowers. Blessings, friends, family, etc. Like our life is a garden. We produce fruit, or flowers... if you will, by having a right relationship with God. But sometimes we can let little excuses and compromise into our lives. These are the weeds. Weeds cause allergies, I know a lot of people are suffering with those right now. But the weeds we let into our hearts can cause us to be sick in spirit, if we don't do anything about them.
I'm sure everyone knows of the little yellow "flower" called a dandelion. I used to pick them all the time when I was younger. I thought it was a wild flower and when I found out it was a weed, I was bummed. The dandelion looks like a pretty flower but really when you get to the root of it, it's a weed that chokes out the tulips. If these dandelions aren't dealt with they can spread like wildfire and kill off the other flowers. Dandelions are much like sin. we can sometimes let the smallest thing like a single compromise to enter out lives. If this is not dealt with it can in turn spread and lead to other bad choices and poor attitudes. Sometimes the enemy will take these things and distort them to where it doesn't seem to be wrong. When you look at your life and see the dandelions, they can be mistaken as flowers, as the fruit of the spirit. But hang around long enough and people can figure out quickly that it's just a weed. a fake. an impostor. a replica of the real thing. For some people they wake up and stroll out on the porch to view their garden and see nothing but dandelions and a few flowers that haven't yet died off, and wonder what happened. We can sometimes be blind to these little weeds. Sometimes we don't want to take them out. They look ok with the other flowers, and besides its only one little dandelion weed. This kinda reminds me of the veggie tales movie, "the rumor weed" haha.

But anyways, I hope this makes since, and I hope it challenges you to take a step back and look at your garden. are there areas of your life that need weeding? Let the Holy Spirit help you and show you which one is the dandelion and which one is the tulip. and let me tell you, weeding isn't always an easy process. I hate picking weeds it hurts my knees, back, arms. it's uncomfortable. But let me tell you, its worth it in the end when we have a beautiful and plentiful garden!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

What now?

Well, it's about a year or so later, since my last post on here. What do I have to show for it? Nothing. Thats right folks. Absolutely nothing. I have no idea what is wrong. I have no idea who I am anymore. Everyday I become more and more like a person I don't know, and further away from God it feels. I have no one else to blame but myself. I feel like I am losing all of my friends. It's not them its me. I feel like I'm pushing God away with one hand, and trying to pull him closer to me with the other. How does that work? It doesn't. I also feel like I have built a cage around myself and God is simply holding out the key to free me from my bondage, all I have to do is reach out and take it. There is no catch. But why do I sit in this cage I have built, accepting defeat and a low life when God has so much more to give? Thats a good question and I really wish I had the answer, but I don't. I came to school to get closer to God and I feel like it has ruined me. Why? How? I have no clue. I am tired of pretending so now I don't. Do I even have feelings anymore? It feels as though I have no feelings or emotion anymore and that scares me. Who I am now is a marathon away from who I was in Christ and who I want to be. I would rather run 1,000 marathons than begin to try to dig out this hole I have buried myself in. I just need God. I know he is trying to get my attention. What am I doing wrong? I can't seem to get to him...